Nooo.... :(

I'm hoping that with a bright, cute color, my words will sound cheerful. Hoping? Yes, hoping. For I doubt that my master plan will work. 

Master plan.

Even that grays as it reaches its beginning. Continuing with this...., with what? Notice how many question marks mask my sentences? Horrible. Last day of school, today. Graduation, tomorrow. Exciting, no. I wonder and question my thoughts, question my feelings. Is everything in me not real? I mean, I don't know. Melancholy has taken over my day, especially this last few hours of my day. Just thinking that school is over, that never again will I walk to each of my classes, see my teachers, laugh with friends, walk those dull, gray, halls, is depressing. Did you feel this way back when you graduated from high school? Tell me, please, that this feeling is going to pass. That it's only temporary. Sheesh! Is it really? Oh goodness, I pray that college will lift my spirits.

I find myself posting pictures that I have created on Photoshop, but hardly ever do I use this blog
for its actual purpose: writing. What could I write here though?
Ok, I got it. I will write about the things going on right now. Well, we have a sub. Not good.
Usually when we have a sub for Web Mastering everyone cheers-goodness, I hope Ms. Simmons
doesn't read this-this time though, everyone is wishing she were here. Ms. Simmons we want you
back!
This sub here wants the world to be as still as possible. He's over there on his laptop with the most
boring eyes I have ever seen. Stupid. He just sighed. Oh great! Now he's eating chips or whatever
crunchy stuff he has. He's so loud. The classroom is completely quiet except for my typing (these
keys are very noisy) and a constant clicking of mouses. Every time one of us says something-even
at our lowest whisper-he tells us to be quiet, or makes a "Hush!". Ugh!! He's so annoying.

Holly just asked where Ms. Simmons is. I'm wondering the same thing. Goodness stupid sub!!!!
I wonder if he can read this. I wish he would. No I don't. But still.
I just turned around to see if I could see what he was eating and, yes, he is eating those stupid
chips! Does he not know we are not allowed to eat in this classroom??!!?!? Ugh, subs these days.

Vivian is reading Jane Eyre. She says there is only one chapter out of the whole book that she
likes. I think I wouldn't mind reading that book. It sounds interesting. But then again, everything
that mentions psychological problems sounds interesting to me. Weird. Yeah, whatever.
Holly is drawing some dragon-dog sort of thing. She's very good at drawing...even in
Photoshop! Makes me envious, I can barely draw stick figures. In fact, envy happens to be my
greatest sin, and no, I don't say that with an eager, amused voice. It's horrible knowing what
is the largest sin occupying your mind. It's horrible! But yeah, whatever. I'll deal with it.


Stupid sub.